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Sat, 17 Feb 2007 17:29:50 GMT

have you heard the news that youre dead ?

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 07:21:27 GMT

a note i wrote to myself on the back of a credit card statement at 4:46 am on december 19, 2006 :
hey. dont ever go on another date again. ever. no, really.
just dont.
im telling you .. its just bad news.
really. you will regret it.
just go listen to the smiths you fool. ( honestly, i even misspelled fool. i wrote "foal" instead. contrary to popular belief, i am not a young horse that is under a year old.)
love me.

the note was rolled up (neatly) and tucked into that empty bottle of red wine under my bed.
how typical is that.
anyway.

tonight at work will noon (ex- breaking pangea as i lovingly referred to him as) came in and was larking around with three jerks. hes you know, the drummer of straylight run.

i care less about his band and more about the fact that he is small and has glasses, and wears nice jeans.

whatever.

im not even going to sleep now but im going to pretend like i am.
im so happy i disabled comments in this stupid thing.
naked pics maybe soon to come.
night.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 18:25:41 GMT

so its done.
i havent written in this in a year but sadly my friends are calling.

jewtopia is officially over this year .. mazel tov or whatnot.

after my sister heard the news, she went on her rant about "one faux boyfriend down, several million more to go" and went on a hunt for our scissors.

and we cut most of my hair off. again.

after i did this the last time this happened.

well now i have bangs.

its odd but cool and ill get used to it and besides isnt it tradition anyway.

i was sitting with lili today after i woke up,
talking about santa
(and having to go along with it since my cousins are still traumatized by my maniacal tirade last year "santa is not real and neither is your freedom : why the adult population of america continually lies to you") and she goes "buh buh santa la la lhuh fush i want a doggy bug"
in baby language.
it was cute.

anyway im in a bad mood
and i have to go to work later
so au revoir bellas.

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 15:40:58 GMT

right now, im making a shirt for my sister and we are listening to neutral milk hotel and i dont know why i am writing.

and it just came to my attn that my lj is NOT COOL, NO ONE READS IT, and WHY DO I BOTHER WRITING so idk,

if anyone reads this i will start writing entertaining things.

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 04:14:26 GMT

i feel like a zombie shuffling around.
some pics to show you whats up with my life.

this is the most action ive seen in months.

really fucking pale, no shirt, why, collar bone.

central park, ugly, nice view

just really pale, on a rock

just whatev to my life ..

oh and i need a date to ted leo and the pharmacists on friday,
im not taking the train home alone by myself.

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 21:37:33 GMT

so im annoyed.

i dont really do much of anything, im kind of a loser and im not much fun,
so why do people get the idea into their heads to talk about me ?

i have a little group of friends, and i try to be nice and polite all the time and not bother anybody,

and yet somehow people get off on the ideas of starting rumors about me.

i mean honestly thats the only thing i can think of, is that whoevers doing this is just getting off on it, the last time it happened the rumor was so untrue i was shocked.

so, whatever. my mommy says the people who start things like this are just jealous (of what i dont know) so whatever, i will try not to let it bother me.

ciao bellas.

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 04:08:50 GMT

wow so . . . i actually had an amazing day.

i woke up early and anthony came to get me and we went to the mall.
we literally dicked around the mall for hours, just goofing off and picking out clothes because he wears really nice ones.

we goofed off and talked and connected and it felt good.

he is really a nice nice boy.

after, he brought me to laurens and peaced out,
but before he did he gave me the little orange muppet in his car.
for some reason that really meant a lot to me,
so i named it frances after him, and i held onto it for the rest of the night.

we picked up rm in middle village, had pizza, went to long beach.
sang queen songs most of the way.

anthony texted me all night and for the first time in awhile im feeling better about a lot of things.

i talked to aunt mel today, and she felt good, and i feel like i cant smile any bigger than i am now !

so bye<3

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 17:13:02 GMT

this week has been hell,
and a preview of what life is going to be like for a little while.
im going to try to handle it though,
im gonna manage to keep going and ill get through it ok,
everyone will.

it is bringing me my strength back, and love from people i need it from.

other news, KYLE IS HOME. i missed him so much.
i almost cried when i saw him.
im glad hes back safe.

im off now to do a million things,
au revoir<3

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 06:10:08 GMT

the puzzle pieces
may or may not
[but probably may]
be starting to fall into place
with my life.

dont quote me on that,
but i saw a shooting star tonight.
a real one .. a big one.
and i made a wish on it ..

we will see if it comes true.

i dont need anything right now.
im happy.

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 15:30:05 GMT

life is idk ..
i really dont know about anything anymore.
but im trying to stay posi ok !

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 06:55:42 GMT

ok for the past few nights
ive been sleeping
but waking up with nosebleeds.
now-
my nose never bleeds ever
but
these are pretty bad.
the one tonight was the worst.
i dont want to tell my mom ..
and honestly,
im not scared of what it could be.
which is a bad sign.
so i guess if i die anytime soon,
thats why.
gosh could my life get any better over here ?

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 02:23:35 GMT

fuck people being cruel.
what did i ever do to you ?
seriously ..

everybody is really getting to me.
grrr gr gr.

im taking another bubble bath.

today is too long and too hot for life.
i floated around in the pool for like ten hours,
randomly saying polo to the kids playing.
they were getting so pissed.

lau is finally home. finallllly.

id give anything not to be home right now.
ANYTHING.

am i awaaaaake.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 16:40:14 GMT

if this lasts any longer,
i will completely lose it.

im serious. what is the point.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 06:18:31 GMT

dear livejournal,
i really hate my life, and i wish i was dead !

love,
erin-kate.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 19:37:39 GMT

portion control, portion control.

i have been non-stop for twenty - six hours.

i just keep going, keep going.

running in place.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 04:50:21 GMT

this will be updated after i sort my fucking life out mates.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 21:20:31 GMT

something in my life needs to change, and fast.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 05:34:01 GMT

bonjour.
today was a long night at work.
too long .. it was crazy busy for the first five hours
and dead for the last.
i was much bored.
i made origami swans for the bartenders out of the seating lists.
they got a kick out of that.

peeps love my hair.
woooo.
tomorrow i am going running ugh.
oh well.

kyle leaves friday, i will mish him. sean too !

im also dogsitting next week and making mad cash.
so.

yes.
au revoir.

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 16:24:10 GMT

hi it is 7 -11 day
i cut my hurr
i hurt my toe really bad
i dont have much to write
i am very tired
bon soir !

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 23:06:02 GMT

la la la im so tired today.
rian and i battled all day in mariokart, we took first and second places all eight games.
now im watching some stupid kids on a spelling bee, they are all completely nerds.

i called aunt melissa today, and she is feeling worse.
i cant believe how positive and upbeat she is about everything.
shes taking me to a barbeque on saturday, all her friends will be there, it will be nice.
tomorrow is potc 2, and i cant wait.

i did so much laundry today that if it wasnt a good thing it would be a crime.

ive seen this episode of csi already.

off i go to be a happy kid.
latazzzz.

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 08:19:47 GMT

tonight was bad why is everything so sucky lately.

screw fake friends.

i just ate a cracker i hope itll hold me over until tomorrow.

i think i have almost enough people for my movie.
plz guys, bear with me through these times.

they are hard times.
laaaa la la la ala la la.

k niiiight.

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 17:51:25 GMT

today has NOT EVEN STARTED and it sucks.
i hate when the worst shit in the world has to happen to make you find out who your true friends are.
i hate living in my house.
i am really starting to hate the heat.
i hate when lau is not with me.
i hate that kyles away and i cant talk to him.
[i hope hes having fun though.]
sometimes i just get all angry and want to fuck shit up but im so small,
everyone just looks at me and chuckles and pinches my cheek, wtf.
this day SUCKS.
i am going to sit around and work on my zombie movie all day.
then hopefully i will go out tonight, please oh please.

my bruise is getting worse .. its literally like black and green and dark blue, and it takes up half my arm. its pretty swollen too, its like a battle wound.

i stepped on a thumbtack before and my foot is actually bleeding,
sweet i hope i bleed out, cool.

peacing out with my sixty-one list , laters.

sixty-one reasons why i am a loser.
1. I can't apply sunscreen.
2. Because of that fact, i am going to get melanoma.
3. I think thats really funny.
4. I spent my morning brushing my dog, and it was really exciting.
5. If I think about it really hard, I have 3 friends.
6. I have thought about #5.
7. I sing really badly, but i insist upon singing, and doing it to the worst of my ability.
8. I have no motivation towards the right things (i.e. school, work).
9. I accidentally stalked someone with one of the three friends i have.
10. I had a lot of fun doing that.
11. I have a cell phone.
12. No one calls it.
13. I have odd feet.
14. I still think fireworks are really cool.
15. I hurt myself a lot doing dumb things.
16. I tell my neighbors to get off my lawn.
17. It's not my lawn.
18. My neighbors are my aunt, uncle, and cousins.
19. Watching basketball makes me fall asleep.
20. The squeaky sound that basketball players shoes make, makes me tired.
21. I stunted my own growth because i started drinking coffee in 5th grade.
22. I didn't even like coffee in 5th grade, i just drank it to be cool.
23. That didn't work at all - and now i am just short.
24. And i like, really really drink a lot of coffee.
25. I believe in rock and roll.
26. Music can save my mortal soul.
27. I know that Cream of Wheat is in fact a solid.
28. I counted down the days till graduation, and now i miss school.
29. I actually voted for an american idol once.
30. Said idol didnt win. i jinxed him.
31. I still can't sing.
32. I like scruff. yeah.
33. One person at Starbucks used to know what i wanted before i even asked.
34. I have a Todd Oldham designer pillow, which is often mistaken for a sex toy.
35. I have an obsession with Star Wars. No, really.
36. I watched the last episode of Dawsons Creek - and i was lost for about a half hour because i had only seen one other episode before.
37. I thought Joey was Dawson.
38. When I'm bored, i play the Emo Game.
39. I mess stuff stuff up a lot.
40. I like apologizing.
42. I have my own screen name on my buddy list.
43. I love The Food Network.
44. I'm afraid of the number 444.
45. I can't decide whether i hate my parents or not.
46. I thought i saw Kurt Cobain in 7-11 drinking a slurpee...but it turns out it was just some guy.
47. I read people's profiles over and over, even though i know they're not different.
48. I really miss Pop Up Video and Rocko's Modern Life.
49. The last episode of Boy Meets World really depresses me.
50. I am afraid of mayonnaise, oscillating fans, slipping in the shower and control-alt-deleting my computer, yet i can watch the goriest movies, gruesome surgeries, and hear the most disgusting stories and not be grossed out or scared.
51. One time, i saw a young girl getting loaded into the back of an ambulance and i said to myself, "well, shes not having fun today." and then i laughed.
52. My looks are deceiving, as you see from the above.
53. I am twenty years old, and my mother still calls me her china doll.
54. This is because i am fair, which alone makes me a loser.
55. I am not a big fan of most cheeses. A lot of people love cheese and look at me strangely when i ask for "no cheese." i suppose to them thats like saying " oh, no air please. id like to suffocate today, thanks."
56. I know too many useless facts about too many useless movies to have any sort of cool factor.
57. I actually have thought about trying to be cool. it just wouldnt work.
58. I still think there is someone out there for me, when there obviously isnt.
59. ^^ thats not a pity thing, relax.
60. I have an actual obsession with zombies. And i really think they could exist. In fact, i know what to do in the event of zombie armageddon. and i try to tell people about it (TO SOMEDAY SAVE LIVES !!!) and they look at me and usually ask me what im smoking/drinking/if my parents were hippies and what they did while i was in the womb, but i dont mind. Because i love zombies. And i believe.
61. I have a list of 60 reasons why im a loser, but i still think im great.

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 21:13:30 GMT

yesterday i went in the pool with lauren.
after, our hair was gross, so we wanted to wash all the chlorine out.
we just jumped in the shower together.

i ended up slipped on some conditioner lol ha
and fell. pretty hard.
luckily lauren caught me before my face hit, my arm took the most of the fall.
but the underside of it, from my elbow to my forearm, is completely black and blue.
its really swollen and painful.

im so mad about it but whatever.

my life is boring ..
someone make it better.

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 07:00:37 GMT

and everyone in the world is a big fucking baby and i dont care anymore.

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 21:49:49 GMT

so last night i went to long beach with like a million people.

it was wonderful, i got sand in my jeans.

everything is really strange lately, im not sure whats going on at all.

i doodled a little picture of a dog smiling really big and holding a heart in his hands on my ankle with a sharpie, and it will not come off.

my ipod died too. but i think its ok.

i THINK my cell phone is working. i have no idea.

i have no idea about anything lately.

so on and so forth.

kthnxbye.

<3